Today’s one of those days when it feels like my world has stopped as I know it and I want to rewind things and make them go away.

You remember that my dad was in the hospital about six weeks ago for about a month. Well, he had a follow-up appointment with his doctor today and it wasn’t what I was expecting to hear. The numbers (all those things the doctors read from bloodwork) weren’t good and the doctor suspected that his kidney had, in fact, failed during that last ordeal but was hoping there was a blockage. Well, the ultrasound confirmed that my dad has lost his kidney. So, of the three that his body now has (the two God gave him and the one some generous family gave him) all have stopped working.

He’s going next week for an angiogram to determine the strength of his heart and to start dialysis. If that is good then they will put him on the list for another transplant. My mom and both sisters have both decided they will go through testing to see if they are matches to donate a kidney to him. I’m doing some research about doing the same. But, for now, I’m just a bundle of confusion and worry and stress and not knowing what to do.

So, that’s my life. Can I get off now?

Till later…